shed get 'destroyed' and 'smashed' and what not, can i ask you what it is that makes you feel so inadequate? you seem perfectly normal, im sure there is nothing wrong with you really. ah ok youre teenagers, well, its normal to wonder about things, you shouldnt be ashamed, and even if you wouldnt have thought so you can ask your parents for advice
shes absoltely clueless when it comes to making music. these youtube 'classes' or whatever she calls them is only so she can broadcast herself and later replay it to her self for her own mastrubatory purposes.
you know come to think of it i would like to destroy her, i think this might be silightly over the top but id like to slit her throat. just feels natural right now