DT... Overcome

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  1. ManuForti

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    So after a discusion last night with a friend about my drinking habits i decided to stop i wont go into that however, little over 24 hours later at work im feeling a little bored and some slight Delerium Tremens i decide four 2mg diazipam and cup of green tea is in order (instead of my usual 2 10mg diazipam and coffee). As i sit enjoying a caramel fudge vape and looking over the building site i am paid to watch i think to myself ok lets do an hour jog after my next patrol and set the ball rolling with my detox. I patrol the site and everything is in order and proceed too set out on my little adventure around Lieth in Edinburgh.

    So i plug in headphones and decide on a soundtrack. since im in cultural capital of Scotland i opt for something other than my usual EDM, Punk, Stoner Rock...etc and put Clockwork Orange OST on repeat. Now my aim is one hour to cover 4-5 miles (not pushing myself as its first jog in a while) and take in some of the sights this area has to offer. Its been a while since i last visited the area so im expecting some new sights and fond memories. And with the upcomming refferendum in mind i also want to think if i should vote and wether it be a yes or no.

    I set of at steady pace and after 5 mins slowing down to a walking pace due to my drastic health, regardless im determined to continue so after a short period of slow walking i up the pace and my first sight is 3 european individuals standing at some bus stop i pass thinking the girl looked like a lesbian... each to their own, no issues, no eye contact i just jog past. Immediatly after i come to a cross roads and from memory remember theres a nice park if i take a right.

    I stop again and think wait a minute i dont have a run tracker on my current phone so i proceed to download one and hit start. By this time im only ten minutes in but i feel ok, i feel better than i did ten minutes ago and just as i enter the park area Beethoven Ninth 2nd movement surrounds my brain. I pick to up the pace and find myself at other side of said park in a matter of minutes where im confronted by two girls who apear to be prostitutes (leith is considered or at least was from memory Edinburghs equivilant to Amsterdams red light district). This has actually been a matter of discussion between myself and some friends recently. I am a single male who has pondered the thought of paying for sex as recently i havent had much or at least from any type of girl id consider to have the abillity to pleasure to me in any satisfactory way.

    One girl walks right infront of me and says something i cant comprehend as Beethoven is still playing. I decide right there on the spot that i will not interact with these girls, they look exhausted and yet almost beutifull in the streetlit darkness. I also sense a deep sadness in her eyes almost hopelesness. I do not remove my headphones and i just proceed to jog around her politly saying "sorry dawl" as if i had gotten in her way and keep looking forward. Im filled with mixed emotions about my decision, shit ive got 10 x £50 in my wallet im sure i could have got a lot for a couple of sheets. But thats ok pussy comes and goes and thats also put a full stop on my thoughts on the subject wich does feel like the moral and right thing to do. So the experience is already turning out to be one that has an impact on my life.

    Anyway i proceed down some side streets i have never seen before soaking up the architecture the colours and still maintaining my pace, when i come across a sight ive seen before a small police station i was held in for a few hours back in 2005/2006. A dispute had broken out at a girls house me and a friend had visited and evryone in the house had been taken into custody and questioned. The matter was serious if i remember right i was very drunk at the time but i beleive some girl had said she had been sexually assaulted by someone in the house. It turned out that the girl was lying and nothing had actually happened and we were released. A very poignent memory however as i remember the police station well. Everyone in the house was put into a large room and most people are just sitting laughing and joking and probably never noticed (although this could be a misconception i may have been tripping balls) but i remember this room well. Not like a holding cell an actual room with paintings and decor and since by this time beethovens Ninth 4th movement was playing i was enjoying the memory regardless.

    I turn right and pass a monument of Robert Burns the famous Scottish poet, looks pretty cool... I maintain the direction and see a casino in the distance and think nice ill have look there and it seems to be right on the coast so i might be able to get a view of Firth of Forth. As i get to the casino i think back to when i was a Croupier and how much i liked that job a short lived job however as i was sacked due to continued absence which i would blame on the destructive relationship i was in at the time. I swiftly shift my thoughts again to the architecture and the dock area.

    A large barge type ship that is docked in the harbour has what seems to be a strobe light comming from it at first glance i assume theres no rave there however and probably just someone welding. I come across an old bridge that has a small chain restricting entry obviously i straddle the chain and decide to cross regardless. Really old bridge the metalwork looks like it has been refurbished recently but the wooden planks underfoot are rotten almost to the point where i sense slight fear... i continue regardless. I notice Clockwork Orange has started again and think mabye i should change it but decide against it, the music has made my jog seem enjoyable so far so why bother.

    I arrive at a shopping mall and notice a man on a treadmill at the gym nothing to really ponder there, the only thought i have is the pure loniliness of the gym it seems to have about 50 treadmills lined up i prefer a proper gym proper weights and a spattering of cardio stuff and think time to renew my membership next week after some more detox.

    I continue on and since im about 40 mins into this jog i decide to head back to homebase... I pass another place i remember and again from afore mentioned memory of the police station this is the house we were at. Now this really has me thinking i had a good night that night, I was getting in wi some bird who was either A. as she said stripping at a local strip joint or B. hooking. Back then i couldnt care less she was tidy so i was like ill fire down wi a mate if you set him up. We all went out got drunk bumped into mates come back to flat. were drinking in flat and all this shit kicks off with this bird and supposed sexual assault wich turned out to be bullshit... Anyway i cant recall how or why my mate "Dangerous Dave" decided to leave the scene or if even he had come back to the house with us, he got lost or something he said who knows. But this all worked in my favour, by time we had been released from police station it was just me the girl i was meant to be fucking and her flatmate who was also very tidy and a stripper (or hooker).

    What came next was one of the most memorable sexual experiences i ever had (not the most memorable drunk sex is shit... yet still) the only time ive slept with two girls at the same time. I wont get all porno about it but it was pretty good i recommend evryone puts that on their bucket list. The funniest thing about it was my mate buzzing the door at 9am and comming in to realise he had missed out on any chance he had with this girl and proceeding to tell me how much of a cunt i am for leaving him. he claimed i left him at the night club i cant remmeber his claims tbh but i do remember this... He said ive been lost all night with no money and i was that thirsty i had to drink water from a puddle HAHAHAHAAHAH. I almsot burst into tears with thoughts of empathy and just how fkn funny that was HAH!

    I continue on uphill now chuckling away to myself about this and wondering where are those people now... i am now walking and simply enjoying the surroundings the YES stickers on every 2nd house window so i turn my attention to the politic thought for a while, Im very much against politics and feel all governments are corrupt so up till now i have never even considered voting for any of these scumbags... And to be honest i think i still feel the same i am completly against Nationalism (not to say im not proud to be Scottish) but i beleive Nationalism is the pre-cursor to Fascism so on that note aswell as the fact i dont trust salmond somehow and i think hes playing the NAtionaism strings ont he scottish people too much i think a yes vote is off the cards... I also Dont like this Darling snake however and truly beleive hes also a liar on pretty much every aspect of this deabte. So where does that leave me? i dont really know yet i think i should get all bob geldof and start a revolution of my own, After all i am detox off drink/drugs and what better way to say to the world im better now by shaving of my eyebrows and starting my own regime LOL.

    Anyway I made it back within the hour and got just over 4 miles, felt i couldnt be bothered producing music so this is my output for the evening instead. I will now drive home and sleep if weather is nice ill be taking an angle grinder to my car.

    Ron S Mackay
     
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    EWOKS POTATOES GONNA POTATE

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    okay... cut the ego in half, and the story, and just tell us what happened in 2 sentances
     
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    its ok lads, i think i can help here. i happened to read the whole thing, and it consisted of our Ron taking a jog and going home, briefly contemplating paying for sex whilst cutting back on his drinking. thats about the size of it. whats a caramel fudge vape?
     
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    $marty Dexcell Staff Member

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    What does the thread do?
     
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    logikz I Am Not The King Staff Member

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    dont know actually, i think what we have here is a clear cut case of making time go faster by writing a bunch of shit so youll get off work sooner
     
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    That sums it up really but actually i was hoping everyone would say shit dude you should be writer... now with my hopes of that crushed (and i cant even giveaway free vinyl in Drum and Bass section) my mood wouldnt allow me to write into readers wives.

    oh thanks for sticking up for me Logikz ill keep in mind long threads about nothing are probably shit i just felt compelled to share somehow. Caramel fudge vape is just another alternative way of getting nicotine into my body short of injecting it.

    Its all true aswell Ysidro... Look

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    Dark Lizardro The Lizard that has a hammer Staff Member

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    don't feel bad like this, mate.

    Well, I must assume that when I read the thread title I was hoping to find some Dream Theater content inside.
     
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    LOL... Nah DT is when you stop drinking.

    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delirium_tremens

    BTW mabye you would like to help with a little review of my Album? I dont mind posting abroad this sint about money for me... And i know you actively help members in the production area see thread and let me know?

    http://dnbforum.com/showthread.php/178553-MF-LP-Vinyl-Giveaway

    That goes for any other Wafflers! Thanks in advance
     
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    Moskit :rodigan: Staff Member

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    I've tried to stop drinking so many times i lost count...

    I came to the conclusion it is actually impossible.

    So now i've taken to trying my hardest to moderate my intake, which by & large is actually going ok...

    I'm slowly teaching myself to hate alcohol, which in turn cuts down the amount i drink & the amount of times i get on it.

    I'd love to quit, but i just can't see a way.
     
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    Dark Lizardro The Lizard that has a hammer Staff Member

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    I used to drink A LOT about 4-5 years ago. Then I noticed I was fat as a pig and decided to be healthier, starting by practicing martial arts. Naturally I stopped drinking like that, and nowadays I normally drink a beer or two in a timespan of a month.

    Why don't you try something like this? Some sport?
     
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    Moskit :rodigan: Staff Member

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    I got twin 3 year old boys & am currently building a house, i barely gey the time to breathe at the minute, i kinda know in a way thats just a kop out, but until the house is finished i literally haven't got the time...

    I will defo start playing badmintom again once its done though, the boys start pre-school this week too which will help, but yeah man i need a focus for myself really no doubt...

    I wanna quit as much for the kids as much as myself really, its just so fucking hard.

    :(
     
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    Dark Lizardro The Lizard that has a hammer Staff Member

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    It's never easy, mate. You just have to gather energy to break out of it. And please, don't come here after a year saying the 12 steps saved you.
     
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    :lol:

    Yeah therapy & groups really aren't my thing...
     
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    Looks like ive started one here.
     
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    HEAHAEAEHAEHAEHEAH MARTIAL ARTS?? KYOKUSHIN KARATE??!? EHAEHAEHEAHAEHEAHEAHEAH
    you should probably try something for men next time bodo, karate the dane cook of martial arts. you do a blazing mawashe geri im sure.
     
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    Dark Lizardro The Lizard that has a hammer Staff Member

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    You see, karl, I'm very surprised you came up with something random I posted on a random thread a while ago: I didn't practice kyokushin karate back then. when I decided it was time to stop drinking like a bastard, I decided to practice Muay Thai. Very manly, no?

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    Awww Muay Thai I tried that for a few eeks till they put me in the ring for a bit spar wi some big mother fucker who wasnt keen on the fact i had shagged a bird he was shagging... i thought all would be ok it didnt he bust my nose pfff. Safe to say i got that cunt one night when he was drunk with my bigger than him car hahahahahah... hahahahah

    I think the gym helps it does for me anyways and a lot of people rate that MMA?
     
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    Dark Lizardro The Lizard that has a hammer Staff Member

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    You see, MMA is just a bunch of guys who doesn't know how to properly fight put together to see who has the biggest dick. you see lots of them fighting as girls, trying to grab hairs, etc. there are few, though, who you can see that properly apply certain techniques you see in martial arts.

    On a side note, never got my nose busted on a Muay Thai sparring. But I have a litte scar on my left eyebrow and one chipped teeth. Never was knocked out as well.
     
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    I think this guy was actually a bit of a pro at least i hear he is ranked in UKMF Light Heavy Weight nowadays... tbh i think cos im same height/build the instructor thought a wee spar with him was appropriate since i had done Taekwondo previously. But really this guy got a bit out of hand mabye because i threw a few punches and landed them he thought fuck you man take that shit hahaah. I decided it wasnt for me i actually respect that sport as it is very intensive.